Wandering on the edge
of space and time.
Wondering,
longing to hold you,
to have you in my arms again.
The infinite universe
will not halt my search.
I will come to you,
kneel for you,
submit my life
to yours.
For you I would do anything,
travel the infinite realms of space,
stumbling on the edge of a
cyberverse.
Searching the infinity.
You are a lightning bolt to my heart
Fizzling, crackling, exploding with passion
When I leave, that face of beauty
Haunted me on my travels
Woke me in a sweat
I thought of nought but you.
I love you, not for hair, eyes, smile or beauty
But for love itself
You are my lightning
You enlighten me
From the eye of the storm
the bolt of lightning strikes true.
Through my heart, tattered and torn
to make me whole. Thoughts of you
plague my mind
What to find?
Undying love
Pure as a dove.
My heart repaired
seeks only you.
My mind impaired
My tears speak truth.
For your lighnting bears
The power it wears
Is strength of love
Pure as a dove.
Standing still in the dark
Deep breath
Absorbed in the darkness
Eyes wide
Listen to the silence
Sitting in the sun
Eyes closed
Feel the warmth
Listen to the sun
Dusk now
Lying down
Feel the twilight on your face
Squint at the sky
Listen to the gleam of the stars
I was wandering
through this long life.
You caught me wondering
about trouble and strife.
How can I find sorrow
With so much to thank for.
And yet I seem to burrow
Sinking slowly through the floor.
When I am with you
And you with him,
I am a third wheel, held by a screw
to tie me to your whim.
Every which way I turn
I see more dead ends
Ends that end in spurn
Or with never ending bends.
When I am with you
And you with him,
I am a third wheel, held by a screw
to tie me to your whim.
Twisting and turning
Down the pathway
My stomach churning
Kick me where I lay
When I am with you
And you with him,
I am a third wheel, held by a screw
to tie me to your whim.
You cannot please me
yet I know you try.
I see guilt, pity for me
Writhing in your eyes.
When I am with you
And you with him,
I am a third wheel, held by a screw
to tie me to your whim.
A stab to the heart
and meaningless comforts
are the same, useless art
and they my mind contorts.
I throw back your insults
your compliments, your lies.
You, once my consult
now force me to cry.
When I am with you
And you with him,
I am a third wheel, without a screw
to hold me to your whim.
I lay and I sleep
And as I sleep, I sigh
I sigh and think of all the things
All of the things we could do
We could do and be
We could be amazing, something special
Something special, something unique
Priceless
Priceless are the joys
The joys and pleasures you bring
You bring the thought of all things pretty
All things pretty, but not with your looks
Not with looks but with mind
With mind, and heart
And heart and soul
Priceless
You spurned me, reluctantly
Reluctantly turned me away
Turned me away, not because you don’t like me
Not because you dislike me but because you don’t love me
You don’t love me, so I love you more
I love you more than finding a soul
Finding a souls or a talent
Priceless
Your love is unrelinquishing
Unrelinquishing and cruel
Cruelness as not for me
Not for me but for him
For him you harbour true desire
True desire, love
Love and pleasure
Priceless
This is all priceless
Priceless but for the toll
The toll on my beating heart.
Do I defy you?
I defy you, defy all you say
Defy you when you say
Don’t love me.
Do I despair?
I despair, depairing without praying
Despair when you say
Don’t despair.
Do I run?
I run, run from the flaying
Run when you say
Don’t leave.
Do I cower?
I cower, cower from when I stay
Cower when you say
Don’t fear.
Do I forget?
No, I never forget, when you stay
Never forget when you say
Forget me.
When the light of Springtime falls
Rays of light that stroke your cheek
In the coming of the sun
We can bathe in her sweet warmth
When my mind wanders
It wanders with you
And I call your name
In bitter warmth
When the heat of summer comes
And we come to the end of life
In the shadows, they will call
Calling me away
And I will go
Away with you
And back again
Building
The tension
Rises
Heart pumping
Full of anticipation
Of fear
Of love
I pass you in the corridor
You brush past me
You don’t even know I exist
I smell your smell
I swallow the lump in my throat
And think of the times
He stole from me
I can never forgive him
He took you from me
I love only you
The one I can’t have
You never loved me
But you could have
If it weren’t for
Him.
I love you.
I can’t have you.
Come fly away
Into my arms
Come with me
But not for your charms
Come for love
Come for happiness
Come to be close
Lay my soul at rest
You must love me
For I love you
Without your love
I couldn’t seen through
The darkening days
That wither behind me
The long, long future
That stretches out in front
It is empty without you
For the warmth will be gone
I will be soulless
My life will be wan
Bleakness surrounds me
As I realise
The surrealist vision
That formed in your eyes
When I looked into them
I saw but no love
For they were afore taken
On the wings of a dove
The dove of peace
Causes havoc in my heart
Diverting, distracting
I come round with a start
I now see the truth
Folly as may be
That though it is futile
I must make you see
So I can know
Forevermore
That my heart that was promised
Shall be no more
